Well Jennie, I've never been abused by a parent but I was abused by another at age 5 a few times. I can say that I too hid/hide from the feelings. I think therapy, one on one therapy, could work wonders. I hope you'll consider it. You don't have to start by diving right into the bad stuffs. You can start with things like how to cope and live well in the here and now. These are just food for thought. Take 'em for what they're worth and good luck. Good thoughts your way.

Ry