BT, I really liked reading Rayna's reflections on the real life experiences of being on an airplane and the appreciation for what you do.
About the first few days of work...There has to be a lot of new experience anxiety associated with it (I know this is the case with me), so much so, that one might feel like giving up initially. But you are so brave and strong for following thru with it. Keep hanging in there. I'm certain as you learn the ins and outs of it, it will become easier.
Love
Patty