Yep. Some ppl do find that thinking about their children, or parents or friends or whatever helps ... not me. I have little hope of my own and often "use" my T's hope to continue. IT is always an option. The best thinking about this, for me, is the idea of NOT NOW. IT can always be an option... I don't have to remove it from the "list." BUT right now Nope, don't have to RIGHT NOW! (Just like you said, ideation...right now..) So when push comes to shove... try and say NOT NOW... I can always do it later IF things get any worse/unbearable etc... but NOT NOW.

BTW PTSD carries with it suicide ideation... strange brain workings... and is not connected to "normal" (LOL) suicide ideation or acts.