Hello, hello.

Maybe it's not as extreme as: is this an emergency, or not?

Maybe it has more to do with: What comes up for you in session that you could handle on your own vs. what can you not get through without reaching out to T?

I guess you would really have to give yourself the opportunity to see how much you have internalized him, and how much strength you really have that, maybe, you are not giving yourself credit for.