ive spent the whole holiday worrying about whether im gonna have friends when i come back. ive been dieting and didnt even eat a good christmas dinner. i told my boyfriend i loved him and diddnt hear it back, then heard him talking to some other girl.
ive just been prank called, which for me shows ive hit the bottom of unpopularity.
and ive just given up. weirdly. suddenly im just thinking "screw school. screw those people i cant stand that i call my friends. they just let you out anyway. and screw you, lily for failing at everything."

yknow what... i just cant do it anymore.
everything always falls apart in the end.
so whats the point in trying?