Thanks for all of you who gave me feedback on talking about flashbacks with your T. I dropped something in the mail to him after that, because it's far easier to write than it is to talk. Working on that, but far from there yet.

We talked about it today, and part of it was interesting because he was able to give me some examples in which if I looked at other people in similar situations I would seem them differently than I see myself. But then as he discussion went on I started noticing I couldn't breathe, like my throat was closing up. I could hear him talking, but that was about it, and I didn't even know if I should open my mouth to tell him so. Too polite to interrupt? Maybe. I did eventually say something...yay me...lol.

Then at the end, he told me to feel free to call him if I needed to during the week. All I could think of was MissC's post about what constitutes an emergency. I agree that perhaps my limbs would have to be falling off for me to think I had the right to initiate a call like that...lol. We shall see.

vienna.