((((phoenix)))))))))))))))
I am so not good with doing the quote thing lol

you said (((
Muffy, the "you matter" thing, for some reason it made my eyes get watery (not a write word but the only one i can think of - i cant cry anymore so thats as far as i get - watery eyes - but no tears )

I guess that touched a nerve, I seem to have always felt that i dont matter that i am more of a hinderance to the world than a help, more the mud on its shoe than the smile on its face -))))))

You truly do matter.,......the tear thing will lead to crying again at some point. At that time you will be able to let some of the afraid you were talking about go. Your right it does tire you out...being afraid is so very hard.
I know i do not talk about it much ,.or let on ..But there times I to am afraid...Its ok to admit it. In fact its part of healing.
You are not a hinderance at all ...many times you have made me feel I matter(((ty)))))
Your a good person..AND (((you do matter very much))))))))))))))))))))))
Muffy

happy new year