Hi everyone. Thank you all for your support.

Ummm, well I called Pdoc and I haven't heard from him yet. I called the pharmacy and they said it was no big deal. I have an appointment with my primary care doctor on Saturday morning. A friend of mine called another pharmacy just to check and they basically said the same thing.

I did not call T because there is nothing he can do for me right now. I spoke with him yesterday about the suicidal thoughts and we discussed increasing my anti-D since I am on a super low dose and not getting any therapeutic benefit.

I am not in danger right now so I don't have to call him. I can handle this, AND I am seeing him on Friday. In a way, Pink is right about T--calling him is not about emergencies--it's about when I need contact because I have lost him internally.

I still don't know what an emergency is. I simply reflected on that theme because of the question that pdoc's answering service asked. For me, suicidal thoughts are not an emergency but they do require attention. If they feel very intrusive or I feel I am not in control then I call T. But I still don't think of it as an emergency. However, having said that, Pdoc did say to call if I have the S-thoughts again, so I did. I think he probly would have wanted me to say yes to the emergency question but it just didn't feel like one.

So, to me, an emergency is an immediate threat--like if you just got hit by a truck?

Anyway, yeah, thanks to you all and Happy New Year!