I am sorry you are feeling this way! I am 38yrs old and did not marry until I was 32 and know what it is like being alone on the Holidays. I am married now and my hubby was gone on business for 1 month and we have a 4 almost 5 yr old boy and a 22 month old girl and I would kill for time alone!!!! I know hubby is leaving for Isreal on the 11th of January until Feb 15th. I get lonely for adults! I do happy hour sometimes with friends but mostly it is me and the kids on a playdate with Moms who I would never be friends with in real life if we had no kids. I wish you Peace and Happiness in 09!