No, I haven't seen a T. I have my dad's DNA. He suffered from clinical depression for many years and was in and out of hospitals most of my childhood. I've had long periods without problems. The last time I was on meds was 12 years ago and then 8 years before that. I have worked 2 or 3 jobs for the past 20+ years. My pdoc said he felt that I had created my own therapy by working so much and though I have clinical depression I've managed to keep it at bay by being busy. I gave that tons of thought and think he may have hit on something. My wonderful friends are always there for me. This whole thing just came out of the blue; an unexplained urgent need to die. I understand the benefits of therapy but I'm not sure it will help as much as drugs or even ECT. In the hospital the social worker said she thought therapy wouldn't hurt but wasn't sure it was necessary. I'll talk more with my pdoc when I see him. Thanks for caring enough to respond. This site has been exceptional support.