Dear Daddy:

I wish you never had to leave me. I am starting 2009 without you-- this will be the first full year, of many, in which you will not be here. I miss you so much.

Today, New Year's day, is exactly four months since I got the phone call that Mom found you, gone, on the bathroom floor.

So much as happened since then that I want to tell you about.

I don't have much else to say right now. I am exhausted, and it has been such a difficult night for me.

I love you. I always will.