hi guys,

i've been going through a bit of a rough patch lately. i see a pdoc and a T to help me with my depression, but my pdoc is on leave and i terminated therapy with the T after he got too worried about me and call a crisis team on me.

so i've been doing it alone the past 2 weeks, and i guess i'm getting a bit (even more) down. my question is this: how do you reach out for support from people who aren't trained to deal with your illness? i have told two of my friends about some of my (pretty heavy) thoughts, and one of them didnt take me seriously at all (told me to act on them) and the other didn't respond (i sent it to her in an email).

i was willing to think that the one who didn't respond might have been on holidays and so didnt check her work email, but she just called me then and said that she had seen my email on the day i sent it. i guess it got me a bit upset that she didn't say anything? if it were me, i think i would have at least said "can i do anything" or take you out, or whatever.

i dont really have anyone apart from my docs who support me, and now those 2 are down to just 1. i am scared i overwhelm my friends, and that isn't fair to them because why should they deal with something they aren't trained to deal with. i find it difficult to maintain 'normal' relationships with them, because when i get depressed, it's very hard for me to enjoy things and so i worry that i'd just be a wet blanket to the company. so i stay at home instead of imposing my company on them.

i guess i'm just looking for advice. if anyone knows how to deal with this. i know it's important for me to build up a support network that involves people other than just my pdoc, but i find that really difficult to do. maybe my depression is too bad that it'll just scare people off? i think that's why my friend didn't respond - didnt know what to say.