I'll see Marianne in 7 hours. I'm going to bring this up at the very beginning of the session. I'm not sure if she has time for a new client. And she's not covered under my insurance, so we'd have to work out an amount that I could afford to pay. My dream is that she would accept $30/session and that I could go for 2 sessions a week for a while. I know that she'll be honest with me and let me know if it would work. I'm trying to keep my emotions to a minimum in this dilemma. It really is a business transaction, like switching banks. The manager might miss you as a customer, but they don't get angry at you for leaving to go to something better.I would think that since I am the one paying for the service, it would be up to me where I get the service.

I know it's more than that since people are involved, but I'm just looking to do the right thing for myself. It kind of feels like a test to see if I have the courage to take care of myself, to put myself first, which is a completely foreign concept to me.

It should prove to be an interesting session. I guess I need to prepare for rejection as well as approval. Wish me luck!