moonkin

i believe she does care about you...deeply. but...i also believe that perhaps she might be feeling a bit overwhelmed. look you wrote in one of your posts this week she saw you for 25 minutes without an appt the first day she was back and that you always stop by for a hug. that's a pretty decent chunk of time...half of a session...for free...not scheduled.

and your post started off with a complaint that she said she would be 10 minutes late and she arrived 15...please moonkin...have you been off schedule or detained? things happen. perhaps there was traffic, or a meeting or another client who came unexpectadly with an emergency or presented himself and she felt he needed extra time (like she offered you).

the woman is human. she has needs too. aand part of those needs is that she has to set boundaries in order to maintain herself preservation. if she burns out then she is of no use to you, her other patients and in the long run herself. you chastise her for taking a vacation...please moonkin..listen to yourself...people need to recharge, regardless if its a vacation or whatever they do to relax they are entitled to it.

i hate to sound harsh but here goes (and forgive me) but you are overwhelming at times. from your posts it seems like there might be many calls, etc and cries for help...this is okay but maybe it is just getting to be a strain for her. didn't you say once you stop in for hugs all the time? i think she is just trying to redefine her limits so that she can continue to help you in the best way she can.

part of this burden is on you. you are 18. caught between a rock and a hard place...old enough for some things but not quite there yet. i think (just me) that you have to decide if you want ot heal YOU have to do it for you. not t. you. and it has to be a decision from inside you. it won't be easy...parents and siblings etc be damned. if they are abusing you don't let them. taking your money. fix the account. take steps to stop it. but do something...don't just wallow.

same thing with t. go see her again. be calm. maybe apologize for going off because she was 5 minutes off her scheduled arrival. that was uncalled for on your side...not hers. and ask her explain what she meant. maybe you misunderstood what she said after you got upset...its possible (happens to me all the time when i'm upset). if there is no solution and it won't work out then make a decision. this woman seemed to have move heaven and earth for you. if it can't be fixed then either stay or leave.

i hope you find peace.