((Everyone))

You see guys how this whole dilemma gets played out? We all have differing view of what constitutes an emergency and we all interpret T's instructions differently. I torture myself and T about this regularly--and I might add, he tortures me too by being ambiguous. One minutes he's slapping that cell phone number at me and the next he's questioning the urgency of the call.

So, yesterday for a minute I thought I was in a big emergency with the meds. What if I had called T and then it turned out it wasn't an emergency? ?????????

I am sure this is a HUGE transference (sorry to those who don't like this word but it really applies for me in this instance) issue for me. I could spend about 12 sessions just discussing what it means to call and not get a response.

Maybe that should be my January agenda.

Love you all.
Peace and Love in the New Year!



PS Recent phone activity: Session on Monday; meltdown and phone call on Tuesday resulted in reassurance and a 3 minute phone call. After hanging up I knew I was in need of more so I left another message telling him I needed a phone session. Later than day-voila! He calls and I have a 20-minute phone session. Soooooo, if I articulate what I need, he responds. I don't get it. OMG I think I'm going to go out shopping and buy T a teeny phone charm present.