Where to start.....I went back and listened to old threads, and found the old gratitude thread I started in oh seven....WOW. To listen to all the things I had listed brought back so many amazing memories. Some of it was hard to hear, like talking about my cat who has since passed, and the job I had before going blind, and the joy of the new apartment and so much else. But it renewed my gratitude....even now, with all I've been through these last eight months, I have a really amazing life. I can't even organize my thoughts to post I'm so overwhelmed with gratitude.

So improvement.....possible just possible improvement with my vision. The "shadows" I see seem a little more defined. I've been noticing it ubut haven't put much stock in it since I've gotten improvement before only to loose it again. But wouldn't it be amazing if if I get just enough, just enough to see the screen? Or my boyfriend's face? Or my thirty year old self? Or my cats? I used to say I'd never live to see thirty because of the way I lived....now I joke that I'm really not going to "see" thirty LOL. I put my face right up to the mirror and I can just make out the contrast between my pale skin and black hair, and I can just make out my eyebrows moving....I don't know guys.

Send up prayers or good thoughs and crossed fingers to the universe or higher powers or whatever gods.....I sense a possible miracle coming guys, and it wouldn't be coincidence if it happens after I'm back here......PC saved my life until I found sobriety, wouldn'ts suprise me if I could see again after all the warm fuzzies I've gotten here the last few weeks. We shall see.......

Happy first day of oh nine everyone, to my old friends and new ones.

Love,
Rayna