I just recently learned about anxiety and how it affects me and where it comes from... in my life anyway. IT comes from always being hurt as a child. So here's the deal. Dad was never around for more than a hot second and as a child I always hoped that he'd stay every time he came around. Got my heart broken every time. Also, there was abuse from another that I won't get into. Anyway, now here we are today. Family and friends are ok and don't bother me. Now stick me in a romantic relationship and get me to fall in love. Skip all the lovey dovey wanting to spend every second together crap and get right to the part where it's nice to have some girl or guy time. It's nice to have that. Or is it? Not if you're me. Girls night out... she's gonna leave me for someone else. She's got to be seeing someone else... or worse yet sleeping with someone else. Now I'm chomping at the bit trying not to call like 5000 times while she's out. Can we say relationship KILLER?!?!?!?!?!?!? Can we say (from her point of view) "Man he's controlling" when I'm not really trying to be. At least I know what the root is so that I can address it and learn do get past the jittery shaky shortness of breath attacks. Anyway, I talked about this in another forum so nvm replying. Just wanted to say it again in the appropriate forum.

Ry