Thanks for the replies! Like you sky, I am basically going on my t's hope that she "gives" me at each session. But now I also have hope from here too. This place is so supportive! Knowing that other people can understand where I am helps so much. I get overwhelmed and then the feelings and negative thoughts start rushing in. I do need to remember that it will pass, but it does get hard at the moment. I think it helped just to be able to post my feelings and be responded to. Love you all