AG, this is not about forgetting the past, that's impossible. This is about forgiving the past and all its transgressions.

I've reread all my posts here. I feel that I did address the very issues you brought up. I addressed the relationship issues and how to move on and have closure in them. I explained how it all comes back to you, forgiving yourself. Not turning the anger and resentment inward, as you so adeptly do. But understanding that each and every person has their own issues.
I addressed the issue of being approachable for reconciliation...I pointed out where that may be difficult for some ppl because of your tendency to internalize everything to the point of taking the blame for everything and everything. And from what I'm seeing of you now, you also have a tendency to be rather passive-aggresive. You state how mean I'm being to you in one breath and in the next you're saying how it's all your fault.

After your original post here, because ou rec'd only one response, me, you took it personally that you must be all alone in this plight. You have a way of projecting that no one could possibly suffer as much as you. Suffering is suffering is suffering, it's only circumstance that varies.

You've made some very specific posts about Cat, it's only natural for us to believe that this one is too. And I'm sure he is, but also your best friend and others as well.

Again, I ask you, what is it that you need AG. You makde a post in Depression, but do not respond, but when you made a post here and you didn't get the response you wanted, you became upset.

I'm trying to work with you here hon. I really am. but when you slam the door in my face what am i suppose to do with that? I will keep knocking. I'll keep ringing the door bell. I'll shout through the door. but it still comes down to you opening said door.

Closure is found within hon. It's not some external act of shutting a door or something. To achieve closure we must accept the truth, the whole truth, and might have nothing to do with you personally.

Keep communicating AG. We'll get there eventually.
TgrsPurr. xo