I too wished for more time with my parents when I was really little but just like you Ry, my wishes never came true. My parents were divorced when I was 9 and I was shuffled back and forth between them so I never had a sense of security or a stable place to live. Each of my parents worked non stop and I never saw them. I also lost my one grandmother at a very early age and I was so close to her. I always felt like I couldnt count on anyone. These feelings did transfer into my adult life and relationships. In the beginning of my relationship with my current husband I was always very insecure and worried that he was cheating on me or that he would cheat on me. It took years and years to get past those feelings. We have been together 10 years and still at time a thought like that will pop into my head like "he's cheating on me". But I know now in my heart that he loves me. That he truely loves me and that is the best feeling in the world. He is my soulmate and I thank GOD that he is in my life.

It was not an easy road to get to. I will have to admit that "I" ruined many a relationships by my jealous, insecure ways. I beleive that my childhood contributed to that and it has caused me alot of anxiety. So, I can relate.
I'll stop babbling now. Geesh...I have been doing alot of that lately.