yes, i am stressed and overwhelmed with college, graduating, the need to find a job in this market, my financial situation and the bills i hadn't even mentioned yet. it's no wonder i feel like this, i know... all this and i'm so alone, i don't even have my dog anymore, and i feel so isolated. i'm not sleeping well, i'm not eating well because i'm down on myself over my weight, i don't have any opportunity to exercise, no energy, and i've even come down with a cold. that could get anyone down... but i also have my past showing me all the fails and struggles... everything i've tried just disappoints, fails. everything. i don't have anything at all to look at and say it was ok then, it can be ok again. all i have is that i'm still here, and i wish that weren't true.

what can i do right now? if i can manage to concentrate and care enough, then i can do some schoolwork. but that's really tough to focus on as i'm so down and hopeless.