Welcome--I didn't think I could make it to a party last night (New Year's Eve) that we were supposed to go to as I was so depressed & crying, but my husband was saying OK, we'll just cancel & stay home (but it was a dinner party with good friends & I wanted him to go for dinner & it was mainly his friend & then I felt so guilty about screwing everything up & making it so awkward for him that I said I'd go--I was afraid I'd start crying there).

It is so hard to act happy...

But I drank a couple beers (medicinal?), took a hot shower, put on as best a party face as I could & made it until 9:45 & then we left. My husband was trying to help me & did agree to leave as soon as we could to help me not have to stay so long.

So feeling better--had a nice hike in the sunshine, some alone time, reading...

I just don't do well with people!!--Suzy