I don't know what to do right now. I feel so empty. There is nothing I feel like doing, yet I don't feel like doing nothing.

And there is no way I'm calling a helpline-- they are completely unhelpful. I don't need to call a number so that someone can ask, "What coping skills do you think you can use so you won't hurt yourself? Can you journal? What about watch TV? Read? Do you see a therapist?" I'm not a ****ing idiot. Right now, I need a lot more than that.