You know I almost cried reading your post and that's hard a thing for me to do. I could've written some of that myself...It's hard to "hope for a brighter day" when you don't know when that day will come. Like Tumnus said, can you just get through the day/night? I have had so many days when I just say screw this, the struggle isn't worth it and the dark thoughts come flooding in. People keep saying someday someday...but when? The people telling you you are strong may not have any idea of the pain you are in, but they want you to hold on. They obviously care about you. Can you hang on for them??