I'm confused, I'm sorry, I just don't think anyone understands, I think you care though. My T woke me up from feeling dead to feeling alive, yet I've abused that, I already know what I've done wrong, what I still am doing wrong. But that doesn't change things, it only makes it hurt worse. I'm lost....on as to how I should look at her eye to eye next session, talk to her, I mean she has said in the past she doesn't want therapy to be about her, rather me, while it is tenfold and its about both of us, I don't see her wanting to talk about the past, because she doesn't see its worthy I mean she thinks she's right, me I don't know whats right anymore....I think I'm different...more so now then ever...different as in compared to anyone in this world.

(((((HUGS TO EVERYONE WHO GIVES A CRAP))))