You are different we all are in out own way but your not the only one who has felt this way or has done this. I have felt this way before.
If you have been doing something "wrong" then that is what you can work on. It also up to your T to set her boundries her expectations up front so that you wont blindly trip over them. Its a two way street. OK.
I think you are a great person and I am very proud of you for reaching out and asking for support and being safe. You are doing stuff that people much older have trouble with. Its not fun to look at our actions expecially when we feel we may have done something wrong but its very brave. ((HUG))