hi Moonkin, i dont know if its appropriate to say this but someone somewhere said that a relationship with a T is comparable to that of a friend, or, we would like it that way maybe, so i was thinking, ive had friends that ive had misunderstandings and arguments with and i think part of the work of growing in therapy is working through these misunderstandings together, the way we would with a friend.. at least i'd like to see it that way... i understand your feelings too, we never want it to be about money... that is so... not emotionally caring to us... but it is kinda complicated in ways... T's have to eat too... and i bet they can care even tho they might be hungry, but truth would have to be, at some point, they need a sandwich too, right? hang in there, its ok to have all your emotions and to care so much like you do..