I have been with my boyfriend for four months now. He was a great boyfriend, very loving and attentive and always there for me. Problem is I ruined it with my insecurities and jealousies! My last relationship, my bf cheated on me and lied to me so now I'm scared of the same thing happening.
Instead of feeling happy being in this relationship I am constantly questioning everything..I'll badger him with questions about anything and everything I am suspicious of and then I'm not satisifed with the answer so I keep going back to it. He has to deal with women at work (we work together) and I get extremely jealous. I constantly check his email at work or his texts and need to know whose calling him.
I then become unhappy because I want to trust him so bad..
I found out he was going out of town for a couple of days to visit friends with his two year old daughter and freaked out that what if theres gonna be other girls around?
So he's been getting more and more frustrated with me, for good reason. Then finally we had another blowout last saturday, he dropped me off at home and I didn't hear from him again. Finally recieved a text saying he needs time, my jealousy is too much for him.
Now I'm kicking myself for losing such a great guy!! I've been depressed and can't eat or sleep. I want him back so bad and I want to make things work so bad. Otherwise this problem will only happen in the next relationship as well.
I think theres a chance he might want to work things out since he said he just needs time and we should just be friends for a while.
How do I stop myself from being so jealous??