That's just it TWIN!!!!!!!! You see where I'm coming from on this one. You alone have the power to see yourself in a different light. I can't make you nor can anyone else here. We can help you to see yourself in that clear mirror, but ultimately YOU alone have to accept what you see. It only matters to me what I see in you until you accept what I see. Not that what I see in you is the absolutel truth, but sometimes what I see is better than what you see and vice versa. I'm so glad you popped in here. And you mentioned something I forgot to say. Practice makes close to perfect... since there is absolutely no perfect. You mention a fear of getting out of your house and going to the doc... but you practiced over and over again and each time you got a little farther. We should apply that to our lives and our self-esteem cause make no mistake, self-esteem takes practice. Look in that distorted mirror and find something good... one thing... that's all. Tomorrow look again and, while remembering that one thing from yesterday, find another good thing. Slowly as the days go by, and without realizing it, that mirror will become clear and you will see yourself for what you really are and the old you will be a complete stranger. That's where I'm headed. The old me was an amazing person. And every day the man I once was shows a little more of himself for the world to see. It's like putting a puzzle together. You have to take all these little good things you're finding out about yourself and put them together into the picture you want. You have the power and control. Paint your picture.

Ry