Speaking of physical doctors, I was escorted straight from nursing school 'practice' blood pressure......(my diastolic was 178..my systolic was 123)to emergency at the very hospital I was at. Put on antihypertensive drugs. Feel better with these. It was scary & embarassing & I was crying. The hospital food while I waited for a doctor was pretty gross. I digress. All this was actually because I get a high blood pressure reading at the exact moment of my flashback of my eqestrian accident when that flashback hits...forget it. And the worst is I _get that flashback yes in nursing school as they take the blood pressure because the cuff reminds me the way the reigns got tangled in my grip.

I dissociate too, big time, and it's a combination of a flashback and a dissociation at the same time. Like my past literally breaks my heart in a million pieces. Movies are great therapy for me I saw the Clint eastwood movie and while it scared me I was so happy for the people in the neighborhood he helped. Music too, Amy Winhouse is soothing.

It is as if we can all find what we love and fight a) dissociation b) flashbacks c)hey let us not fight and just love