Hi,

I am 29 years old and have been diagnosed with major depressive disorder. I took Lexapro for many years but when Lexapro started to flatten me out the doctor put me on Wellbutrin to compensate. I couldn't stand it and stopped the drugs. I was fine for a while. I could put myself in check and was not panicky. But the last two months have been horrible for me (besides my mood, I broke up with my boyfriend of over 5 years, feel in love with someone who did not have the same feelings at all and have had a major job/living situation change). I have lost 15 lbs (which is not all bad) I cannot sleep and my panic and anxiety is terrible. My friends actually started to worry.I started back on Lexapro and added Sonata then Temazepan to sleep and it has not helped. Last night after the worst panic attack of my life my doctor switched me to Cymbalta, Klonopin and Ambian. I have a need now to be around safe things, like my family (you know it is getting bad when you want to hang out with them!) and ex. A confident loner, I now can't stand being by myself and wish my brain would just stop churning.
I come from a tree of mental illness; depression, schizophrenia, bipolar, Narcissistic Personality, I could go on and on. I just want to have someone tell me it is going to be okay. I know no one can.

Thats all. I actually feel a bit better writing all this.