Aw. I can relate to both of you. I'm headed back the 12th as well, and I'm afraid I'll flunk out, and I'm afraid of the kiddy-ness of the girls around me, as well as the lonesomeness that I feel. I also get very depressed in the winter, and have frequent anxiety attacks. I'm nervous to go back, but I keep in mind that as miserable as it is, it's going to give me a better future. It's hard, I know, but sometimes it just gives the extra push that wills me to keep going in school, instead of giving up. Another thing that is very helpful is coming up with a list of 5 or 10 things that are good in a very bleak situation. Say, for example, you're stuck eating a holiday dinner with people that you don't really want to deal with. Some things that might be positive in the situation could be - the mashed potatoes are good, I can go do something for myself after this dinner, even though there are people here that I don't like, I do like _________. I don't know if that's a very coherent thought because I'm not good at explaining it, but if you do understand, it really helps to clean up a bleak situation, and at least take some pressure off. Anyways, just know I'm thinking about you guys, and good luck. Hope this helps.
-Ella