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Originally Posted by mistymi
time to start all over. i made it through another year without to many attempts.
what will this year bring more heartache, more headache or just more junk i dont want to deal with. i am going through a time even my persrciption sleep meds i sleep if i am lucky four hours and that is making my depression get worse as the days go by.
i was feeling good the other day and now with out it sounding wrong i give up. no i am not going to harm myself, but i would like to take something to knock me out for a while.
i hate thinking i have to face another year ahead. what am i going to do to screw this one up?
i was so stressed with one of my classes today and then i was told i was the only one that did the formatting correct. my husband said to me at least i can do one thing right. maybe it is a fluke. maybe i should beleve what so many other people have said over the years.
CRAP I am so sorry i was rambling and didn't realize how much i wrote or how awful it is.. another screw up on my part.
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(((((mistymi)))))
Yes, it's another year...whoopdee doo...A new year, same old ish...I know the feeling.
And it's okay to ramble. I do it all the time. You are getting your thoughts out You didn't screw up. My rambles have turned out much longer
. But the good thing about rambling is that people will read and feel your pain and happily respond, like me
--that's what we are here for
and we allll understand.
I feel like a hypocrit for saying it will get better because i have yet to get there(then again I just started therapy), but I have a tiny bit hope that it will for me (which is probably why I am still here. That and my sister is probably my only connection to life right now) and I want you to have hope--even if that little bit of hope the size of your baby toe nail
. Try to get through one day at a time, okay??
