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My friend asked yesterday if what I see is like looking through wax paper and that was a pretty perfect way to describe it. So now I'm seeing the glwglow of the laptop screen through the wax paper. I can make out cats when they move in front of me. So we'll see if the wax paper gets less opaque lol.

I wasn't lalways this positive believe me. Its probably good that I couldn't be here in the beginning lol. I mean I was lalways sure of my sobriety but I hadn't yet started noticing he blessings coming from the loss of site. Its been a cople months in therapy and a new sponsor too that has helped with my attitutdes, and just getting adjusted.

There was one day I was on the pity pot, whiching I could see the rain noutside when when my "good conscious voice" said stop this......how miserable to want to be? what does the sign in the homegoup say, we absolutel insist on enjoying life. It was then that I made the decision to try and make the most of this. Just like I made the decision to stop drinking. I accept that I'm blind one day at a time. If I think about forever its too mch, just like with my drinking.

I have another motive for being happy wink. My " blind teacher" took me to Best Buy to show me how to ask for help in stores. Afterwards he said, you were so pleasent that the next blind person that salesguy runs across is gonna get good help, so you're a representative of the blind community now. So I look at that is practicing these principles in all my affairs. Just like I'm a representative of AA when I'm "out there", its the same with my so called disability, yet I don't see it as a disability. My eyes are disabled, not me.....

So its just a choice....to live life to the fullest no matter what gets thrown at me.

I won't lie though, if God decides enough ahas been gained from this and decides I should see again, I wouldn't complain teeeee heeeeeeeee heeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Hugs,
Rayna