I'm sorry if I misinterpreted your replies. I'm obviously not good with the written word. After this evidence, people will probably really stay clear of me in fear that I will misinterpret what they say. It just seems I can't talk about relationships without people assuming that cat is involved. I hate that. I wish that relationship was never made known to anyone else. At this point, I'm almost wishing it never happened. I don't know how else to explain what I was looking for. I guess I really lack in vocabulary skills. I'm not trying to insult you. That was never my intent. I thought you asked me what upset me so I broke your post down to give my interpretation. Obviously that's not what you were looking for. I misunderstood and I did it with a 2nd post before reading this one I'm responding to so I apologize for doing it twice. I'm not assuming the worst of you, never was, again, I obviously don't explain myself well. It seems the more I say, the deeper I'm digging the hole. I don't have any hostility towards you and I'm not meaning to insult you. I'm not sure why you think I am. How have I attacked you personally? I've not said one thing bad about you. I've said you didn't intend to hurt me. I'm glad you will still communicate with me. This would be the point where those that have left me, did. Thanks for hanging in there. That means the world to me. I wish I was better at communicating, I really do. This does not change our relationship at all from my point of view. You offered me help, I misunderstood it and some of it hurt. We can't always expect that we will like everything that we hear/read. There is nothing to forgive you for, you haven't done anything wrong but I do thank you for forgiving me and my screwed up brain and still wanting to hang in there with me. You will be the first after an exchange like this. That means a lot to me. Thinking of you too. I'm so sorry. God, I wish I was normal.