I could really use some more input into my situation with my brother. I wake up with anxiety attacks over it and have nightmares. He has had over a year apart from me and still he says he needs his space away from me. And that he doesnt miss me as much as i miss him. And going back to college seems lonely because I only have a few friends there not close friends that I can really talk to if you know what I mean.

He said I have borderline personality disorder because of my push pull behaviours. But he does the same thing.....he wanted to celebrate my birthday and christmas with me but yet he still wants his distance from me. I get so confused. Does he hate me or what?