and Muffy i am hoping it will not end badly, you are every bit as strong as the lamb I chose the kitten looking inthe mirror - because i love cats and also it semed to be touching the mirror and saying is that me in there? and thats how I feel - I look in the mirror and wonder who that is in there - is that me? - I cant look her in the eyes - maybe someday I will but not yet. take care P7