thanks for your responses. I know it'll just take some time and I'll be ok. I think I'm having such a hard time with it because it is completely my fault. He is a wonderful person and did nothing wrong execpt not being able to give it more time for me to get over my way of thinking. I have been diagnosed with delusional dissorder and I believe my boyfriend wants to be with someone better than me. Thank you again for all your support, it really does help.