i'm sorry you are so uneasy about what this year will bring for you. can you try to imagine for just a moment...this could be the year that the clouds will lift and the sun will shine for you again.
why can i suggest that? it happened to me. (at that time i could hardly see to the end of a day).
just keep determined to regain your strength...believe it can happen to you...envision how you would feel. just take one day at a time...keep a journal...it will reveal many things about yourself.
i did a gratitude list and as time went on i found more and more things to be grateful for. i'm not sugarcoating how you feel for i know it is real. my post is a gentle suggestion of things that helped me get from hell to happiness.