like the others, llt, i would suggest you ask your T if there is any way to help. the very worst she would say is, "i'm sorry i can't help you". as i have done some things that i knew were going to be embarrassing i found out they are not fatal and actually some of them have had great results.

i once talked a chiropractor into forgiving the rest of my debt to him - 2,000 dollars because he did not ever change the way he treated me even though it never did help. i simply wrote him a letter and expressed it to him and he wrote it off. all i risked was a no and i got a yes.

none of the bad feelings you worry about - from telling things to T - is as bad as what you are privately feeling and suffering over now. i speak from experience. i don't always enjoy it but i am learning and doing it.

hang in there, it is going to get better

leslie and the pixies