I so get this. I used to be like that. WIth my old T the one who turned on me because I never talked about feelings or anything really just said this is so stupid. I never could talk to her about anything and she wanted me to talk about the worst thing that happened to me and I just stared at her. I kept telling her I had no feelings and she would get mad and say if you had no feelings then you would have talked about this night with someone and you have not. I was in therapy a couple times for a few sessions as a kid to deal with this night and never talked either. I never wanted to call her out of session missed sessions by faking illness and hated every second of it. Then she went off on me in group about this and I just kinda shrunk inside my self and made seroius self harm plans. A couple of days before my plan I called the T that was a student in this truama group and had gotten hired on at the agency to ask for help, and she called me back and kept calling me to talk until I could have an intake and get to see her. Then I just opened up about little things and she taught me alot and I began to grow and I started emdr and I am talking about that night alot. I call her between sessions sometimes and sometimes keep daily writing to talk about thoughts and she reads them and wants more.
I think that in therapy there has to be a moment when your ready and you just jump in. Neither of my T's have ever made me feel like a burden they find things no matter how small and say way to go look at this your doing a great job. I was ready and I was willing and they always say you are so willing and open to therapy its a joy/pleasure being your T. So You have to be ready and you have to have the right T. No one can make you do therapy. Also for some people that type of therapy works well. Its about you and what you need and if your ready.