P7 talking might help. I have felt that way just recently and talking has helped me. There is a difference from saying I am planning to do this right now and saying I have thoughts of but I am not acting. You cant get locked up for thinking, You have to be honest though. If you have plans in the near future that is something you need to say. I am asking you please dont hurt yourself ever cus I like you and it would break my heart. (sorry) had to stay true to what I was feeling. But back to grown up me T's can be helpful with this. I have a written plan from one T to use when it gets that bad and I can go step by step and that has helped. ((HUG))