Earthmama, I am sorry you are in this fear! I know what it is like waiting for results like a MRI and it is so scary. I Prayed and beged GOD to please let me live to raise my son who I was Pregnant with at that time. All went well and I was cleared. I know how scary you can let your mind wonder! I also lost a son at 2 hours old and my hubby kept telling everything will be ok(When I was Pregnant with him) Well everything wasn't! So when ever my kids get the flu or sick I panic and hubby says every thing will be ok I DO NOT BELIEVE HIM! I do know it is so hard and I will put you in my prayers!Hugs