I know what you mean about not being able to talk about the fact that you are scared with your H. It's nice that you can do it with your T. I think I hate "getting" the tests more than waiting for the results. I hope your T calls you back so you can talk with him about what your feeling, without getting other family members upset. The best you can do is assume that all test results are negative for whatever pathology. I like to live is this disconnected bliss when dealing with medical testing.