(((Earthmama))) I hope you dont have to wait long for your results and i wil keep my fingers crossed that it comes out ok - i am so sorry that you are feeling alone - we are here and we are NOT afraid - sending you all the and hope I can muster

and as to nedding T - I think that makes you human and aware of what you need to help you - it's a good thing I hope T gets back to you soon or I will be with MINIME outside his house protesting ! LOL

Deep calming breaths, think of things that make you smile, times that made you laugh, drink a strong coffee or have some chocolate - it's good for the seratonin levels thats my excuse or just crawl under tha blankets and try to sleep if you can.. I'll be thinking of you P7