oooh you so didnt read the answer.. it was a) forget about it and it will go away LOL

(Quote deliquese

how do you fear the discussing the thoughts might bring them out? you mean, get you to act on them? kind of like - if i tell T then i will want to do it even more because i've been thinking and talking about it?

yep thats it, I distract myself, if i try to deal with it i am afraid it will bring the feelings closer to the surface not back in the dark where i keep them hidden

can i be really blunt and ask for clarification here? are we talking self harm or suicide? i want to keep you safe.

although i have done the first one to ground myself and take a step back from the second one - the thing i am talking about it would be the second one - grrr see i cant even write about it let alone talk about it! - and that part of me is NOT in control at the moment so I am safe. I remind myself of the reasons I need to stay around and the harm it would do - I have my happy box with things in to remind me of this - so i dont know why the thoughts keep returning - i want them gone - but I dont know what to do - whether they will just fade in time or not.. - P7