(((earthmama)))
i'm so sorry you are going thru this and i do understand. you never think it could happen to you - i certainly never thought i'd have to have a mri to see if i had a (benign) brain tumor. i didn't have a tumor but was actually depressed when i found out as it would have solved my health issues with a surgery that wasn't that invasive, lol.
i hope there is someone you can talk to about this. well, we're here.

i will pray for you for much peace during the waiting and clean results.