Hi ThePainNeverDies,

I wanted to let you know I sympathize with you. I was also a cutter after my rape ten years ago. My rapist was never caught since i didn't report it and that disturbs me to this day. I wanted to let you know that ten years down the road my days have gotten better and I no longer cut or check locks obsessively or anything like that. Sometimes I think about it but it doesn't bother me like it used to. Having said that I have had eight years of psychoanalytic therapy. A book that helped me is "The Courage To Heal" It might help you too. It seems like there is a lot of anxiety in your life I hope you can find an effective way to deal with that. Whatever you need, I am here for you, just PM me or catch me in chat.

Love and Hugs,
Tara