I have been seeing T a little over two years. We have had a productive, if not volatile relationship.

I am in a place right now where I don't know how to move forward with him. I have tried to discuss this but he seems defensive. He doesn't seem like the same T I "fell in love with." His empathy meter needs to be charged and when I left there yesterday I felt ugly.

I haven't been able to "find him" for the past six sessions. And there was a week in between of his vacation.

I am seriously considering winding down our work. I never in a million years would have thought about this at this point--because I feel as though we are just in the middle of working through some serious stuff. But I don't see a way forward. So how do you wind down a serious therapy? Do you start going once a week and then poof, it's over? Do you set a time/date? Do you give notice, like a job? "Okay T in two weeks it's over?" How does this happen?

I am sitting here, trying to figure out a good enough excuse not to go on Monday--not a good sign at all. I don't want to feel what I am feeling right now.