when i thought about terminating with my T, i asked him at the end of the session if we could have a session dedicated solely to talking about the decision. i was prepared to decide to either stay or go, but i wanted a session first where we could talk about it.

of course, when the session rolled around, i just sat there mute the whole time. i do stupid things like that, sometimes. we had a break, in the end, and i returned eventually.

then when i *really* terminated last time, i just told him at the end of the session i didnt want to see him anymore. feels like a loss, because i wanted to process it with him, but he stopped being a safe person for me to go to, i guess.

if you are torn about whether to stop, then i would suggest having the termination discussion. if you find he is still resistant to owning some of the problem, then i guess you have your answer.